hey all
at the moment ive been reeeeally confused
i dont no if this 'guy' likes me
i think he does but im too scared to ask him
anyway i dont think i should say his name but i could give u a hint...his initials are j.g
lol ok i wonder how many people got that one lol

ok so i dunno wat to do im so confused
i know iknow im just being self centered and theirs so many other problems going no in the world right?
but this is really hard for me atm...
o god what am i going to do?

ok so the good part is that he broke up with his gf recently but really i dunno if thats a good thing coz its made him really upset and i hope he doesnt do soemthing stupid like cut himself (hes done it b4) but i do know thats its good for me im just not sure if hes ready for another girl in his life or if maybe that will make him feel worse :(

or maybe he just needs a friend
but o god i dont even know if he likes me as a friend!
this is all so confusing and shitshitshit i dont know what am i gonna do
ok so maybe im babbling on a bit but im really in a panic and i so want him to like me

its hard to explain n give u the whole story atm coz if i did it would give it away but seriously is complicated
if you knew what i was talking about you would know and understand... o god

ok so i bet ur all bored with my complaining and crap like that n youve all got ur own problem im not the only one i just need someone to talk to and o god i so wish i could tell you the whole story right now coz everything would make so much more sense but i can just say that the reason i have no one to talk to is coz my bestie and my ex bf we being bitches to me and a friend so i cant talk to them anymore (my ex bf and i were heaps tight) but because i had a fight with them i made a new friend out of it and i cant talk to him either because well i dont think i can say anything more
o god im being totally obvious
id better shut up before i just go and shout his name out loud lol

wow so that was a long post right
i guess this is the end and now ive got to go figure something out
ive heard that maybe i should try and find some thing me n him have in common
o god this is going to be a long road i just know it
hopefully it will be worth it in the end right

wish me luck
-brandy <33

heya
my name is Brandy, i live in CA in the east bay in berkeley
this is my 1st time on lj so im not really used 2 it yet lol
im still learning the ropes but luckily ive got a friend to help me
Jexg is my best friend you should look him up on here n add him
his real name is jimmy n he lives near me
weve got a bit of history but i dont think he wants me to go around telling evry1 just yet
more about me later =]
brandy